Sniff What I’m Steppin’ In

As I walked Buddy this morning, I waxed poetic (in my head) about all kinds of things I vehemently like and dislike. Well, it got a little negative actually because I was having a really bad 24 hours, but then I gave myself a swift kick to the pants and tried to think of positive things as well. Today at the office, I feel like a work horse who’s been injected with Ritalin because I’m in such a bad place that it actually feels really really good to just focus on mundane tasks. I can’t stop focusing - my eyes are like saucers that won’t blink. My fingers are typing about 98 wpm. My work feels like very soothing aloe for some reason. But - so does list-making! Damn do I love a good list. Here goes:

Things I like right now:

• pistachios, in the shell (the process of shelling is thrilling because I’m so unbelievably fast and competent.)
• sleeping with my animals especially with they snuggle in so that when I’m on my side, one is in the nook behind my knees, and the other is on top of my feet, or waking up with one on either side of my head, like when I was sad last night. animals are amazingly intuitive to needs!
• Gorillaz (just good)
• Evanescence (to be angry and sad with)
• after St. Patty’s day, a woman I work with introduced me to The Red Wellies - fantastic Irish music - I listen in my office every day
• Fergie (to work out to)
• red wine, any
• my new phone, the LG Voyager
• the promise of Spring and the occasional warm day
• relationships
• sleeping with my windows open
• feeling a little bit wiser and knowing that even when things feel like they’re hitting rock bottom, somehow I know I’ll be okay
• sushi - I am having near-daily cravings for sushi
• dark chocolate peanut M&Ms (not with the sushi)
• extra hot nonfat chai tea lattes
• extra hot triple skinny one-pump vanilla lattes
• daphne odora

Things I currently dislike:

• the return of my ganglion cyst
• the return of my achilles pain
• rude people
• dumb people
• rude dumb people
• bad drivers
• rude dumb bad drivers
• the coffee at work
• being forced to sit still for longer than 1 hour, like in a meeting
• not having my dream career
• being paid the same amount I did at age 23
• somehow having fallen off the ladder
• not being able to attain the goal of home ownership
• cold rain
• body fat
• un-attached foreign body hair at the gym, as seen on the floor or in the middle of the pedals on the elliptical
• relationships
• my brain
• old gum when you’re not near a trash receptacle
• inefficiency
• injustice
• war
• un-met hopes
• unsalted, unseasoned almonds
• unexplained headaches
• danishes
• John Mayer
• people that don’t pick up their dog’s poop
• when bad things happen to good people
• when good things happen to bad people